Confessions of a fraud

I. Am. A. Fraud. Wanna know what makes me one?

When people ask me how my new job is going my response is “great”!

It’s okay, I took it because my previous job made me mentally lazy and I needed another challenge.

When people ask me how I’m doing, I say “fabulous”!

Sometimes I am and other times not so much, either way my answer remains the same.

When folks ask me about the new guy I met, I say “he’s great and things are going well”!

It’s…okay. Truth be told, I’m not that into him, but he’s a nice guy.

When someone says something to me that Irritates me, I’ll laugh because I don’t deal with conflict well.

See what I mean? A fraud. I could go on but I think you get my point.

I’m tired of trying to uphold the image that I think people want to see and that I want to show them. I’ve become so used to the slick veneer of myself that I no longer know where it ends and I really begin.

It’s said that you can’t change what you don’t acknowledge. Well this is my confession so that I can move to living an authentic life.

So here are three things I’m going to start doing immediately so I can get back in touch with myself.

1. I will be honest with myself, no matter how ugly my truth is
2. I will not judge my truth
3. I will hold myself accountable when I’m not being authentic

Your turn, what lies are you telling yourself and others?